Loneliness

There is an inherent loneliness in every human being. Sometimes it is unfelt, but if you are sensitive at all, you feel it. I know I do. C’mon, don’t your thoughts revolve around your perceived problems?

This inherent loneliness cannot be removed by a human being, a pet or good friends. Why? Because that is how God made us, that’s why.

Loneliness leads to depression and lack of common sense. Even if we are on the path, we feel pangs of loneliness.

This Friday I am antsy, dreading seeing my new Family Doctor next week to get prescriptions renewed. Rob has to have surgery for a hernia in the next couple of months. And the holidays, don’t get me started.

Every year I do the minimum of what is expected of me. And I never feel satisfied that I have done enough.

You are wondering why I started off this essay about our shared loneliness and then switched over to feeling antsy and guilty. Because loneliness makes everything worse.

I can buy a new item of clothing and know it is because I feel lonely on some level.

I can feel guilty because of my introversion. Are any of you still reading this? Do you, too, suffer from existential loneliness?

There is no cure, by the way, until you sit still and feel overwhelmed by your feelings of isolation and dread.

Welcome to the club. It’s called Planet Earth.

Vicki Woodyard