I am in here typing at 5:30 a.m. I woke up around 2:45 with burning pain in my feet. I got up and took a pain pill given to me for breakthrough pain.

The neuropathy and tremors are both getting worse. So far I have quit driving or traveling due to the neuropathy. Once the pain pill kicked in, I had a bowl of oatmeal and a cup of tea. I will go back to bed and see if I can get 3 more hours of sleep.

I read the comments people make on the forum for people with neuropathy and I have been very lucky so far. Others have horror stories about the degree of pain which they are in.

I am blessed to have a strong foundation in the truth. It undergirds my pain and anxiety, which are based in the body and ultimately affects the psyche as well. I am a hot mess in the middle of the night.

By day, I feel almost normal. My handwriting is wobbly and it will get worse. I’ve already told Rob he will eventually have to do a lot of things I have always done.

As I said, I have plenty of time to write and writing is how I express myself. Occasionally, I pick up a copy of “Life with a Hole in It, or “Bigger The the Sky.” Peter’s words as he struggled with severe brain damage remind me of the only real solution to our human problems. He would just say “Ho ho!” And he reminded me that he held my hand in this life. He is gone now but the soul never dies. May he be resting in a green meadow with his beloved cats.

This life is transitory, as are we. We shoulder our burdens as best we can and return to Self-Realization off and on throughout the day.

I have more miles behind me than I do in front of me. It behooves me to treat the body with respect and the mind and emotions will follow. There is always a way to work with whatever situation you find yourself in. (And that situation is your karma!)

God bless us, everyone!

Vicki Woodyard