What is going on in my mind right now? The proper answer should be surrender. However, the mind, in its stubborn refusal to do so, presents a thorny problem. We enjoy feeling bad because, as Vernon Howard says, gives us a false feeling of life.
I feel bad about so many things that I cannot change. The list is longer than I care to admit. When I finally experience a crash, all thoughts disappear. They are replaced by sadness and fear on the emotional level.
There is a devastating sorrow that none of us dare face. We are alone and afraid in our cocoon of emotions. So we cry out to God and He sends us no palpable answers. The ego is momentarily silenced.
This is because out of this silence, healing can arise.
This is a humble silence and out of it, we return to the Garden of Eden. We are the prodigal coming home.
Now another problem arises and it is the same wolf dressed up in sheep’s clothing. It is “Return of the Ego, Part 99,000.”
God must get very weary of our whining refusal to surrender it all.
But God is always with us.
Try staying with Him as long as possible.
He has room in the inn.
Vicki Woodyard
Such powerful and extremely beautiful words from your heart. We are in constant messes, we try to handle the messes with our totally messed up egos; and we should be surrendering (as you rightly indicated). Let go. Let God His inn is our one and only refuge.
I finished watching “My Mister.” The hero tells the girl at the end that he is going to “be happy.” That is a serious responsibility he is taking on. And a very important one.
I finished watching “My Mister.” The hero tells the girl at the end that he is going to “be happy.” That is a serious responsibility he is taking on. And a very important one.