Here I sit on the third day of being alone in the house and nothing has gotten done. Instead I watch YouTube videos and watch TV. What is wrong with me?

The grass got cut and the man said he had a bad cold so he wouldn’t come in to blow the back deck. I hope it wasn’t Covid. That is how the mind works.

Why am I working on the ebook so hard that I had to take two days off after trying to wrangle the material into shape? It’s just my nature, I suppose.

I also love solitude, which happens after I stop watching videos. It is then that I am most myself. I am not myself when I am fretfully thinking about the future.

It is important to be unserious as often as possible, at least for me. That is why I watch so much TV and videos on my Mac. They are grounding for me. Today I watched a video made by a Japanese couple living in Paris. She goes about her day and her husband films it. Very calming.

“When there is nothing to do, do it,” she said facetiously.

I am surrounded by angels and I do nothing that can impress them. But then again, they do nothing to impress me.

The silence holds all of us in its inescapable embrace and we struggle to escape, nevertheless.

I want to look good, feel good and behave good. That is my ego typing this.

No one can act themselves into existence, for the part they play is real and the actor knows that someday he will be dragged off the stage kicking and screaming.

The question, “Who am I?” is yet to be answered. Silence is idiot-proofed.

Vicki Woodyard

P.S.
So few readers these days. Where did everyone go? I am posting again on FB and am being read there. Apparently blogs are not as popular as FB.