The Alchemy of Awareness
Awareness is a sweet elixir. To imbibe it is to change one’s state from sleep to awakening. When asleep, the mind is whirling like a dervish. Awake, it has the power to simply see our condition without rebelling against it.
No one is promised anything. Those that ooze with loving everybody are no better off than those who still suffer human emotions. Ooze and you lose, she giggled as she typed. I run from the type of over-enthusiastic oozers that would have me grin while the world goes crazy in front of me.
It is easy to retire from the world when you have lost all interest in it. Then you spend your days doing nothing. Oh, you have to pay the bills and all that, but socially, you have nothing to do or say. You know that truth is for those who realize that they are bare beginners at this job of awakening.
Used to be, people in online groups would say that they had gotten it. Gotten what? I found them to be intellectually comprised by their own belief that they were special and could help others. Many wrote books and held meeting to help those that professed to need help. Buyer beware.
Vernon Howard said that none of his students had gotten it.
What actually happens is that you begin to study your chains. Yes, that’t it! Study your pains and chains all day long until you see that is what your life consists of.
These days I sit a lot. I do nothing. I say nothing. I neither lose or gain anything. I am simply the Self in all beings. God created all things and all beings and then he expelled the First Couple from their verdant compound. Generation upon generation seeks to return to the Garden but they are using the wrong maps to get them there.
No one knows anything that you don’t know about the spirit because we ARE the spirit. Check your arguments at the door and spend the day happily in pursuit of nothing. Of course you can’t be happy, but that is another essay altogether.
Vicki Woodyard
From one bare beginner to another, your words help in reminding us to stay awake as much as possible. Sleeping is very easy, but gives us many of our pains, I believe. Plus, we stay in illusion. Thank you!
Yes, we go in and out of consciousness. Good spiritual students know that and therefore know better than to call themselves enlightened. Of course the average person has no idea that this is going on!
Vicki,
You know how sometimes when you sleep too much you get a headache (when you’re awake)? I’m thinking you and Ruth may be on to something…so easy to sleep then suffer with pain.
I shudder to think how sometimes I believed the pious pretenders. There are no answers or eureka moments “out there”. Inner mining is hard, but I keep digging. I need some Tylenol.
Blessings
Vernon used to say he was there to pull the pillows out from under us!
Vernon used to say he was there to pull the pillows out from under us!