I had a bad day yesterday. My blood pressure was low and that made me feel drugged all day. Rob had a day of allergies making him feel bad. Neither of us cooked. I had an egg sandwich and watched some of the news about Chauvin being charged of murder. It hurts to type that. While having zero sympathy for him, I still feel compassion for his soul locked up in that murderous mind. Make no mistake, we have all sinned and fallen short of the glory of God.
We say it is okay for servicemen to kill and be killed in the name of our country. War is always for profit and the average soldier is left out of this financial deal.
Minds can be murderous without ever actually committing murder.
My heart is heavy; I cannot pretend the opposite. George Floyd’s family saw justice done yesterday, yet their hearts are breaking with his loss. I know loss; it takes decades to heal from some of them.
They showed Chauvin’s house and it is quite small. He probably has already died in his heart. But his body will have to do time until it dies, too.
This is a very serious note and there is no sense pretending otherwise. I know too much some days and on other days I forget it all.
Do not pretend that you don’t have serious doubts arise in the middle of your sainted faith. “We have all sinned and fallen short of the glory of God.”
Now I must take up my cross and get through the day. We are all in the same boat and it is sinking. America is not what it used to be; hatred rages underground and bubbles up constantly. Nothing can be solved down here on earth, yet there can be acceptance.
Later in the day I will feel better. The sun is out and the leaves on the trees are newly green. “Let not your heart be troubled. Neither let it be afraid.” Amen.
Vicki Woodyard
“If It Be Thy Will” is by Leonard Cohen
Your entire post was serious, heart-breaking: and, in my opinion, should lead us to the soul and self searching that we need to do. Acceptance is very difficult, but it quiets our soul and gives us the realization that it is what is given us to do. We can so very easily become part of the rampant rage and destruction (even by strongly detesting what we see) — then we are part of this world. The times we do remember “to go to our true home” are our moments of grace. Two nights ago, the lesson that I heard by Vernon Howard was so simple and profound. He said, “Choose God.” Amen.
Yes, the energy of our country is seriously “off.” But as spiritual students, we are counseled not to get involved but to “pray without ceasing.”
It is interesting how draining this has all been, dear Tami. Leonard’s wisdom is a light for all who hear him. I have done nothing but light dusting and picking up today.
I feel deeply tired on an emotional level, beginning with January 6. I pray that justice will come for Trump and all those that perpetuate his kind of evil. Merrick Garland
is a man of high repute. Quiet and decisive; he is who we need as our Attorney General. May God be with him.
By leading off with Leonard Cohen, I could feel your energy. I pulled up this song/prayer on YouTube. The version i viewed was introduced by Leonard and sung by the Webb Sisters. I wept. I’ve never heard it before. As a matter of fact, I had never heard of Leonard Cohen until I started following you Vicki.
You (and Ruth’s comment) have encapsulated this moment in time perfectly. All feels so heavy and at times frantic. I feel a building up of energies even as I try to remain hopeful and positive. My prayers are increasing in content and volume. I pray for All, everything. I pray for my own soul with it’s smears of failures and stains of shame. Then I remember that I absolutely know that whatever will be will be…. “If It Be Thy Will.” And so my hopeful heart hangs on.
I hope you are feeling better Vicki💜
Yes, our country needs Merrick Garland with his steady, just hand. Our country also needs to heal from the trauma of Trump and his co-conspirators. We need to see some serious consquences for all of those who spew hatred and violence with evil agendas.
Snow on the spring buds today…climate change in action❄⚘
Peace Vicki
Dear Vicki, your post, Leonard’s song and the comments from your friends made me weep too, and drove me to an old book I had forgotten about, with excerpts from the works of George Macdonald. This one came to mind, on “God’s Vengeance, A Prayer for Polluters: Oh joy that all the hideous lacerations and vile gatherings of refuse which the worshippers of mammon disfigure the earth withal…shall one day lie fathoms deep under the blessed ocean, to be cleansed and remade into holy because lovely forms! May the ghosts of the men who mar the earth, turning her sweet rivers into channels of filth, and her living air into irrespirable vapors and pestilences, haunt the desolations they have made, until they loathe the work of their hands, and turn from themselves with a divine repudiation.”
And this, on Death, Why Jesus Wept: “I think it was grief at the grave of Lazarus that made our Lord weep, not his death. One with eyes opening into both worlds could hardly weep over any law of the Father of Lights! I think it was the impossibility of getting them comforted over this thing death, which looked to Him so different from what they thought it, that made the fearless weep, and gave them a foretaste of His own resurrection.” Weighed and Wanting, LIX
Yes, bring on Merrick Garland!
Chris
I used to read Macdonald! Thanks for the passages quoted. I think “Treaty” is a masterpiece. It is mysteriously unable to be interpreted. I think that is so we
can soak in the mystery and the beauty of it. “We were broken then, but now we’re borderline….”