So I am sitting here again, having already had breakfast and lunch as if it were for the very first time. What do I mean by that? Just that every moment is new.
I feel anxious because I have to say yes or no to a social engagement down the pike. My introversion is already saying no and nothing in me is saying yes. This is an ancient experience for me, yet new in the moment.
We are souls floating in the turgid waters of ego and hating every minute of it. No one is coming to our rescue. To the contrary, all anyone’s ego can do is oppose other egos.
I am falling out of love with sleeping humanity, as they have nothing new to give me. It looks like the new but it is actually the old. I am typing these words for the very first time, just like I do when I am eating or resting, etc.
To say no to sleeping human beings is to invite their criticism, nay, their hostility. You must now prove good reason for the no that you dared give them.
Go ahead and say no anyway. They do not and cannot love you like you need to be loved. Only you can do that.
As Jesus said, “My grace is sufficient.” Selah.
Vicki Woodyard
I feel your anxiousness Vicki. Yesterday I said yes to a social engagement down the pike. There will be family members there, so that alleviates some of my anxiety. I know my family loves me and I love and miss them, but my desire to never socialize is just part of my nature. Conversation with sleeping people is such a one-sided affair.
I just read this, written by a woman who had a shamanic healing. If we could heed this well:
My life belongs to ME. It doesn’t matter what I DO with it. It should be “I-directed.”
That is the only purpose for being here.
We are surrounded by endless love.
Vicki would like to just say NO in advance with no guilt about saying NO. It is her YES to herself.
This desire to never socialize is something introverts feel guilty about. My son inherited this gene from me.
And yes, sleeping people only talk of their sleeping lives.
There, does that make you feel better, Tami?
I just read this, written by a woman who had a shamanic healing. If we could heed this well:
My life belongs to ME. It doesn’t matter what I DO with it. It should be “I-directed.”
That is the only purpose for being here.
We are surrounded by endless love.
Vicki would like to just say NO in advance with no guilt about saying NO. It is her YES to herself.
This desire to never socialize is something introverts feel guilty about. My son inherited this gene from me.
And yes, sleeping people only talk of their sleeping lives.
There, does that make you feel better, Tami?
👍😊 Yes Vicki, I feel better. It makes perfect sense.
Thank you and I hope you feel better 👌.
Dearest Friend VICKI – thank You – UUU 🙂 – so very, very much for all You are speaking out loud, ever so fresh, ever so nourishing within, ever so pure of HONEST thoughts! Glory unto God. With my Salutations to Rob, thank You Vicki – for Your trusted, ever on flowering Work, Your Help and Support is Bliss to me!
Thank you, dear Silja.