The Work of Waking Up

I have been working on myself for a long time, but the veil is so strong between this world and the next. And even stronger is the veil between ego and soul. God is a true master; He knows the score while we forget.

I can say things now that I couldn’t say before. My daily battle has been between what I want to do and what the world expects me to do. There I’ve said it so you don’t have to.

The Work is hidden from the ordinary world. We have to become seekers in a very silent way. You cannot show that you are working on yourself. If you do, it weakens you. And you are weak enough already.

The Work doesn’t make you a sycophant; it makes you sick of that! Your very real inner work involves catching yourself playing a familiar role for the thousandth time.

Synonyms for sycophant from “The Merriam-Webster Unabridged Dictionary”

• apple-polisher,
• bootlicker,
• brownnoser,
• fawner,
• flunky
• (also flunkey or flunkie),
• lickspittle,
• suck-up,
• toady

I have caught myself engaging in a conversation where I am playing false because I lack the courage to stop betraying myself.

I have flattered people rather than tell the truth.

I have hung around a group of people talking and gotten bored and tired. I knew if I walked away there would be hell to pay.

I could go on and on, but the message is clear. The ego is designed to keep the conversational ball in play. It will brook no truth-tellers.

Christ came to show us the higher way and we do everything but live it. If we lived it, He would come, to paraphrase from “Field of Dreams.”

Revelations: 22:12 King James Version

“And, behold, I come quickly; and my reward is with me, to give every man according as his work shall be.”

Vicki Woodyard