“Find out what is immediate…” said Ramana Maharshi,” and I deeply love this. I have suffered from anxiety since the age of twelve and that was most immediate when faced with social occasions.
So I knew that I was not good enough to overcome this irrational fear.
And I withdrew.
And now I am old and I withdraw joyfully. It is who I am, what is immediate.
I now know that being the Self is totally enough for me. Socializing is no longer on the agenda. I have aged out of it but I have also realized the Self in all of its distressing disguises.
I write to find out how beloved I am when I tell the truth. I am relatable.
I have suffered more than most and I am privileged to be able to withdraw.
Having suffered fools gladly I no longer have to. That is not a hate-filled statement, just a true one!
What is immediate is my own beautiful Self. My cup runneth over.
Vicki Woodyard
Hi Vicki,
Being confronted with your honesty definitely has the effect somehow of letting go of many ideas/beliefs that are seen increasingly as destructive and limiting.
Feeling as though there is a gradual removal of some of this heavy armor.
Thank you. 🙂
Thanks, Lewis. Our culture devalues the soul while courting the ego. Everything is upside down and inside out!
Vicki, in those brief glimpses, (feeling from the heart-soul) the world experienced soft and sunny as opposed to the harsh and gray of the ego.
‘Having suffered fools gladly, I no longer have to.’ As soon as I read those words I began to wonder if all along the biggest fool had been myself, and how much of whatever I had suffered was self-inflicted, I don’t, of course, mean any of the tragedies, just much of all the mental torments I seem to have created for myself. 💕