I am having a lousy Monday for no good reason. The sky is gray and so is my mood. Just a lot of blah feelings keep me from being productive. The buildup to Christmas is already affecting me. I am the one person in a hundred or a thousand that doesn’t buy into the good will generated by Hallmark and other purveyors of profit. I just don’t. Even chocolates that would ordinarily make me happy are just crammed into my mouth absentmindedly. The calories know where to go; they don’t need me to tell them.
Grief is no longer a holiday issue with me, but it has permanently lifted the veil of commerce hiding false sentimentality.
I sit alone breathing in and out. I have left the world.
And when you leave the world, it doesn’t even know. How about that!
After I had a bowl of oatmeal and a cup of tea, I just sat around all morning long. I felt a little off physically but nothing major. I just couldn’t even do a simple task.
I thought a lot about how Christ is reborn in us as our very own consciousness. Christ would not have celebrated Christmas like Christians do.
The breakup with the world does not not make headlines, but it is big news indeed. Hosanna to wholeness.
The mask of society is painted on; don’t believe in it a minute longer.
Wrapping paper cannot hide the true surprise of becoming conscious one moment at a time.
Vicki Woodyard
You are not alone, dear Vicki. I think much of the world would agree with you even though they appear to be caught up in the insanity. The masses are made up of so many individuals each trying to get through the day and especially the “holidays.” I just give gift bags to those who have gone out of their way to be kind and try very hard to practice kindness no matter what time of year it is. I hope tomorrow is a better day for you. All my love to you.
Thank you, dear Tib. I have had to resort to silence most of the day. Tomorrow will take care of itself.