Everything has changed. The pain is carving out a new life for me. For some reason I am in limbo as far as getting adequate relief. And from what I read, relief from nerve pain is hard to come by. It involves trying different drugs at different dosages to even reach a place where you can even think of functioning normally.

The pain comes when I lie down at night. Once up, I am either almost okay or, like yesterday, dizzy for hours on end. I am writing this because those of us that read my blog know I write what I am given to write. Sadly, this is it.

I can look forward to my first acupuncture session in ten days. Now ten days of pain seems like a lifetime. I can wait for my scheduled first visit with the neurologist but that, too, is weeks away.

Right now the pain devils have me at their disposal.

Yes, chronic pain affects one’s mood, as there is no cure for damaged nerves. You can only look forward to getting worse as time goes on.

I feel grief; it rises up and turns into tears. Why? Why is my life eroding? Because, from what I read, chronic pain eats away at you.

I am writing to you when it is the darkest; I can only anticipate some sort of dawn. Hopefully I will not be so medicated that that becomes as much of a problem as the pain.

Vicki Woodyard