I have taken two weeks off from the online world. I must say it has been deeply enjoyable. I may not ever come totally back.

I sit in silence, watching spring take hold one leaf at a time. One weed at a time. One bee at a time. Suddenly it is all filled in. Where there was once only winter, now there is only spring.

And the soul incarnate is alienated from itself. Ever restless, ever seeking, it cannot find.

I know this only because I am human. So fragile that I must protect myself like a new seedling.

I know what it takes to become eternal because I, in my alienation, want the suffering to end.

Businesses profit from our self-alienation. Churches do, too. Relationships. Eating. Sleeping. All problematic for the ego-driven desire to return Home.

Online prophets squeeze the last drop from their believers by holding out the promise of spring to a winter-based life form.
We buy and buy and buy and no one is ever free of feeling alienated.

The biggest scam of all just might be enlightenment.

Seek it as if your hair were on fire but do not expect to feel less alienated.

Perhaps now and then you feel like you belong and that is generally after you have broken down completely and realize how poverty-stricken the ego is. It is a bottomless basket, as Vernon Howard called it. Nothing lasts.

So that is the situation. What is the solution?

There is none for the ego. But that is always good for the enlightenment business, isn’t it?

So when there is no worldly answer, seek a heavenly one. Just know that you are the only solution that you will ever find.

Vicki Woodyard