Someone gently said that they thought I was caught in a web of sorrow. Synchronistically, I happened on someone speaking on Buddha at the Gas Pump. Rick Archer read a question from a lady who was struggling with the loss of a child. This teacher said the teachings are for those of us that are struggling and that we must harness what we have been given.

So, yes, the web of sorrow is lifelong for me personally. I do not attempt to escape or throw it off. That simply does not work for me. However, there is an alchemy that takes place when I write, when I am in the service of Self. This lifts the sorrow to an amazing degree.

Those that would pronounce me too grim must consider what it might be like for them to walk in my shoes.

Here is how I have handled my sorrow. I have turned to esoteric teachings, which have helped me to grow.

I have become a writer that consistently shows up at her keyboard.

I have learned from a shaman that joy is my true nature. I learn this simply by being in his presence.

I have prayed and found silence to be the greatest blessing.

Am I still caught by the ego’s story. Certainly. We are all flesh and blood as well as spirit. I deal with my quota of suffering the best way I know how.

Do not count me out yet. There is still time. I will be the first to let you know when I can say the veil has totally lifted.

Until then, I lift it up and write what I know and feel to be true for me. I do think that there is too much emphasis on enlightenment and not nearly enough emphasis on us doing our part to grow in grace and knowledge of the Supreme Spirit.

Spirit knows its own. Thank God for that.

Vicki Woodyard