I felt an uncanny peace this morning. I sat in my usual chair letting my mind go blank. Then I was suddenly realizing why life is so hard. The whole time we are being social animals, and that is definitely a requirement in this world, larger themes are playing out in our heads and we dare not discuss them!

After my child died, the first thing my son said (He was 11) was “I can’t go back to school!” And I knew what he meant. How could he face a class in which no one else’s sister had died? How was he going to manage that? But he had to attend school.

It was pure hell for him. A neighbor kid had made jokes about his bald sister. His heart was shattered and school no longer mattered.

I have just told you your life’s story in one example. One reason I am peaceful these days is that I am no longer a social animal for the most part. I have my inner life as my main life. Otherwise, I would be betraying myself.

Betrayal of one’s essence is a requirement in this world. Few will ever see it. If you see it, you are one of the lucky ones.

Peace is hard-won but it can be done. Or should I say it is done for you when you realize that society is unreal and that your essence life is founded upon just that.

I am going to stop right here. You should feel a jolt.

Vicki Woodyard