There is no free will. Of course, the mind will argue that there is, but the mind is robotic. Now that’s out of the way!
I am grieving the loss of my husband. Thirteen years, you’d think I would be over it, but there is no emotional free will, either.
Okay, you say, surely there is physical free will. Ask someone with a handicap if that is so.
I have been angry today because Vicki just doesn’t get it. She wants to get it, but she can’t. She can’t just walk away from the table. She isn’t ready. She is still hoping for a win in the Game of Life.
She gets these ridiculous emails from a man that tells everyone what a blissful life awaits people when they follow his suggestions. What rot.
I studied with Vernon Howard. I listened to Ramesh Balsekar. They didn’t talk about free will. Vernon talked about imprisonment.
I live in the prison of my own ego and believe me, it is no fun. My broken heart aches endlessly and no one is coming along to fix it.
Sometimes Vicki is peaceful and creatively fulfilled, but not today. Today she paced the cage like any other animal. She couldn’t muster a roar or a peep. She just suffered.
Vicki, is she worth saving? I think not. But I can’t just get rid of her.
If you haven’t caught on, I am just confessing my dilemma so you will realize it is yours as well. Life is no walk in the park. People are dying. They are frightened and angry and no one is coming along to fix anything. The Messiah of this world does not exist.
Something awaits beyond this essay. Something watching me type. Something that will watch over me irregardless of how hopeless and futile it feels at times. I believe in that.
Vicki Woodyard
If it were possible , and the mind stopped thinking, would the universe take over, and do for us what we are supposed to do to survive? My dog makes no preparations for the future, she knows her bowl will be full at 2 P.M. in the afternoon, the universe pretty much decides what she will do. The hard question is can the mind use thought when it is needed and not think when it is not needed? That would be a happy existence. We can survive for a time without thought, but for how long? We can’t return to childhood, but that was a very good time to be. I feel happy to day, didn’t do a blessed thing.
This is an age-old dilemma that no one has answers for. One can only say “This, too, shall pass.”